where are we gonna keep this thing?

Recently, many have questioned where in the world Stephen and I plan to keep this thing. Well, after ten months of growing Baby Garvin inside the baby bump... Baby Garvin will have a bedroom! We have decided to hire a professional team of interior designers to turn one of our guest rooms into a "little person room".

Now, one might ask: Jess, what's the difference between a nursery and a little person room? Let me show you.

THIS is a nursery:


and so is THIS:


and one last one:


So now you see what we are attempting to avoid. Not that there is anything WRONG with this style of nursery, don't get me wrong. We are just striving for something a little less "matchy" between sheets, bedding, and wall decals... and more "matchy" to the rest of our house.

With that said, let me define difference between a nursery and a "little person room". A nursery is a room you walk into and think "yes, a baby definitely lives in this room"... A little person room is a room you walk into and think "yes, an itsy-bitsy person lives here".

THIS is a little person room:


as is THIS:


and the last one:


So, although I know you all are a little nervous for our accidental addition to the Garvin Home, you can rest assured, knowing that we won't be keeping him (I say "him" and Stephen says "her") in a cardboard box in the closet. Baby Wyatt (or Owen, Brooks, or Boyd) or if Stephen gets his girl, Baby Harper, will be comfortable in his (or her) cute little person room.

Pregnancy Secrets

I've decided to make a list of things that no one tells you BEFORE you get knocked up. (And for those of you who are offended at the term "knocked up", as my loving husband seems to be... I apologize. However, as I've stated before, "getting pregnant" is on purpose... "knocked up" is accidental.) Anyways, my whole life I've heard people talk about how WONDERFUL it is to be pregnant. LIES! It's terrible. Therefore, I have decided to make a list of the terrible things about pregnancy.

#1- Morning Sickness- Now, the common misunderstanding between normal people and pregnancy is that this thing called "Morning Sickness" is when you get nauseated in the morning. The TRUTH is, morning sickness can last all day. And another thing is that some women just get nauseated... others (like me) are nauseated AND vomit. So this is the first worst thing about pregnancy... throwing up all day long. I've even had to go to the "ER" a few times to get fluids pumped into my body through an IV because I've been puking so much and so stinkin dehydrated.

#2- When you get knocked up, your bottom half has to make room for the baby. Therefore, your hips start to expand. Causing the devil himself to create pains so terrible in your body that you can't walk straight. No, seriously. My hips and back hurt so bad if I didn't have a little heartbeat down there somewhere, I would cut my body in half and throw everything from my boobs down into the trashcan.

#3- Boobs. That brings me to my next point... not only do they grow, which is a problem for those of us who are already "well-endowed" but the hurt like heck! And I hear, when you get even closer to your due date, they leak. Now someone please explain to me what sounds so wonderful about leakage.

#4- Sleepy!- I already have a huge problem with my desire to stay awake. Sleeping is perhaps my favorite thing to do in all the world. So now, where I could typically make it through a work day (and possibly take a nap when I get home) I just want to take a nap about an hour after I get there. And then another after lunch... And then another about an hour before I get to go home. Then I come home, and I want to take another nap. And then another after dinner. And then another about an hour before going to bed. And then off to bed about eight. The sad thing is... it's not like I do manual labor for a living. I sit in a desk for cryin' out loud!

#5- Emotional Wreck- I will be the first to admit... I'm an emotional train wreck. I cry for the stupidest reasons. And sometimes I even cry for no reason at all. This is fine when surrounded by family and friends. However, that one time I was in line at Wal-Mart and there were several people in front of me and several people behind me... I just started thinking about how badly I wanted a drink of water and lost all composure. The guy in front of me turned around to me crying hysterically and said "I know hun, it makes me so mad when there are 40 lanes, 500 people in line, and only three open checkouts."

Well, after only a short six weeks of knowing I am pregnant, those are my top five. I'm sure there's more to come.

Our Little Baby Bump

Well, word's out... we have a tiny little baby bump growing. Alright, it's a HUGE baby bump. I keep telling myself "you're not fat... you're pregnant"... but it doesn't exactly seem to be helping.

So here is "the scoop" (as my dear mother likes to say).

Back in March, we found out we were pregnant (on accident). I woke up one day and thought to myself "I am stinkin' pregnant". Which actually turned out to be true. So that Sunday morning, we drove down to Duncan and took a pregnancy test at my dad's office. Four tests (and three positive test results) later, I decided to give in to the pregnancy test fairy and admit that I was, in fact, KNOCKED UP.

After the emotional roller coaster we went through that day, things continued to get worse. I was sick all day Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday... then Thursday, I woke up, went to pee, and found I had started to bleed. So four days, seven tests, and six positive test results later, I was beginning to miscarry. I had finally started to warm up to the idea of being a mom... and all that came to a crashing halt four days later. Stephen took me to the emergency room... sure enough, I was miscarrying.

So then several weeks went on, although I was healing emotionally, I was still getting sick, still having sore ta-ta's, still peeing every twenty seconds, and still feeling really tired. So I decided I was going to go to my dad's office and figure out what was wrong with me. After blood work was drawn, I learned I was pregnant.

SERIOUSLY God? Not funny.

So long story short, it's a good possibility that I miscarried a twin. How is this possible? I have no clue. But it is... my little sister Katy (http://girltobride.blogspot.com/) was apparently a twin. It happens. It won't be confirmed until July 8th, but my doctor is pretty convinced.

So now, nine months of being married, nine pregnancy tests, and eight positive results later, we have a tiny little (MASSIVE) baby bump.

Makin' Plans

I have come to the realization that there is no use makin' plans in life. It's wonderful to be organized... but the thing is, when you make plans for yourself, and then God's plans take over, you just have to reschedule your plans anyways. This is why I have decided to take the advice that a great man once told me... "Let go and let God". I never realized what that meant until recently. Although at first I was somewhat annoyed at God's lack of consultation with me, I realize that He knows best. He knows the plans He has for me... So there is no use being annoyed.

Life is full of unexpectedness, but it's important to remember, it's not REALLY unexpected... God has been planning it since before we were alive.

Let go, and let God!